what you think of the most
it’s almost a month since i wrote. probably have nothing in mind… NOT really. i have lots of thoughts everyday, a lot of them are negative that’s why i don’t want to write.
i learned that i become what i think the most. but even before that, as much as possible i don’t want to keep track on negative events. it’s not fun to read and nakakahaggard ulit-ulitin. it’s true though that if you’re depressed, you’ll be more depressed when you think of it more often. but i know sum1 who works like hell to avoid thinking. denying is not helping either.
it’s 4 am and my body clock adjusted to my work schedule. sandman isn’t here yet. maybe it’s really all in the mind. i hope that mind is more powerful than the heart, otherwise, this world would be full of hopeless romantics. guess i think like a man, really practical. i don’t know if i acquired this with my previous relationships. if so, can’t tell if i should be thankful.
my current one, i think, isn’t working. it’s been a couple of yrs and there’s not much progress. i am not proud of it. is it our fault that we’re too alike that we forgot how to be sweet, thoughtful and… open to communication (some1 told me that it sounds complete having 3 adjectives in a sentence)? i guess this is a challenge for the both of us, esp me coz i’m the one bothered.
i’m hungry again. this graveyard thing doesn’t make my tummy thinner. i just ate a while ago! and it’s calling for food again? yan 2loy nasira un momentum ko. anyway, as i was saying..it’s a challenge. to stay keep the relationship working, to stay fit, and not be stressed. i brought myself a new phone. most precious purchased item ever for me. do i smell a humongous stress here? I have this retail therapy kc whenever i feel lonely, sad or depressed (3things un ah). aun nga, i’m happy with it naman. sana mei isa jan na mag-effort rin na bumili ng cel to text me. kainis ka!
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