out of reach
i emailed him my thoughts abt our relationship and he said bawi daw siya.
san ka naman nkakita ng bf na through email mo lng mkkausap at kung sswertehin ka, mei buwanang dalaw ka. parang xang period ko…irreg. he said he’ll buy a new fone. pro ilang buwan na nya sinasabi un. he doesn’t call kc daw baka storbo coz he knows that i sleep at daytime. sounds really weird. daig pa namin ang may long distance relationship, mabuti pa nga un friend ko tinatwagan ng bf nya from dubai and they constantly communicate. unfair din naman magcompare. pro lamu un feeling mo dehado ka, but u can’t explain why you trust the person. i trust him even if he’s not doing anything. actually the point is he’s really not doing anything at all!
i remember the song “you don’t love me anymore”..napakasadistic ng dating at masochist nun singer. hehe but seriously if that’s the case, i hope i would know at that time. i hope that i’d be aware before he tells me. so i’ll be the first to walk away, before he notice it i’m already gone. sounds familiar to me?
anyway, im still sad about the sudden death of liam. siya na nga lng ngpprotect smin d2 sa haus nawala pa siya. the other day going to work, kakamatay lang niya nun, i was reminiscing about the good old days with him. suddenly i felt tears running down my cheeks..shet naiiyak ako! can’t imagine that a dog will have such impact on me like that. i really hate goodbyes and any thoughts that goes with it. life is really unfair and if you can’t go with the flow, you’ll drown yourself into tears and be stagnant.
kaya nga iniisip ko pa rin un loss ko when he died, i mean he came when i was brokenhearted. now he’s gone, what does it mean? ok na ba ako? nde pa rin naman eh. am i a good parent to him? i know that there’s a lesson i haven’t learned yet. maybe i should try to do something right now to make some changes. it’s my fault why he’s used to staying out, nde ko kc xa tinatalian nun. ibig ba sbihin nun ttalian ko na ang bf ko?
Leave a Reply