what makes me whole

Monday is my off so i decided to FINALLY date my ex. since his shift ends 7pm, i went to my long lost bes whose already preggy and i haven’t seen for 2 yrs i think…?

i was hesitant to meet him but i said yes. he kept on calling to my bes’ house just so to check and update me about our date. it was already 8pm and i realized i’m awake for 24 hrs already!

di ko lam what happened to me that time, nawala bigla ang mood ko na makita siya.

BIG MISTAKE.

dahil lang nawala ako sa mood, i decided to postpone it. it’s obvious na nalungkot siya. panu kc he wants to see me and have dinner at his place. but i don’t want to because i wish we’d go sumplace where we could sit and talk. i don’t want his mom to find out that we’re still communicating, dahil sa isang pangyayaring pang-telenovela, tila yun na ang una at huling pagkikita namin ng mom nya.

i posted it to my x-blog:

STORY-of-US

he called again after saying gbye which is really unusual for him. i asked “namiss mo ko noh?” he said “lamu naman yun eh”. when i went home, i just wish i didn’t say no. kulang tuloy ang araw ko. i feel something’s missing, and it’s only him that could fill in the emptiness i feel right now.

~ by ampful on September 2, 2008.