how will i be?

Since my birthday, i was sick and became thinner. It was more than a week and i feel like not going to work. I filed sick leave on my bday. I was able to come to work the other week but after a week i became sick again. i filed for sick leave for 2 days. my mom was also sick that time and my sister too. after that my brother was confined due to upper respiratory infection-which was his fault-pasaway rin kc. anyway, i missed blogging. and i didn’t know what happened to our dsl, maybe it was sick too..hehe

during those times, i didn’t contact my ex cause i’m a bit frustrated, he didn’t even remember my bday. only after minutes of chatting he realized that it was bday. then when he knew i was sick, naguilty xa he even bought me a present (which i haven’t gotten y the way). i just said it’s nothing and my bday past already. he said even though, it was still a special day for me and he’s happy with my presents when we were together. actually it would be the very first present he ever bought for me. he gave some stuff before but this one is different so i’m just curious what it is.

we chat last friday morning. i told him that one of my friends wants me to go with her in spain.

he said: ¿Qué hay de mí?

Si vas a ir

at that time, i was chatting also with my friend who speaks spanish. then she told me the translation. it means “how will I be if you leave”…. i’m flattered. then i said why does it have to be in spanish. he said he’s shy.  i  don’t know what kind of set up this is between the two of us. right now, he’s the only man i have in mind. i bumped into my crush the other week. i was surprised seeing him. but then nothing’s new and i realized nothing’s special. he’s just one of those guys who make my heart beat faster. but with my ex, even though we don’t date a lot, we don’t meet a lot, or share things a lot, he has this special part in my life that i can’t erase easily. i’m not one of the mushy or hopeless romantic type but it’s different with him. i’m finding out the hard way with him. i’m not sure what to do now with him but i’m just living each day at a time

~ by ampful on October 13, 2008.