earthquake drama

“tita, parang lumilindol? nararamdaman mo ba?”

“nde, pag nakahiga nde mo mararamdaman…”

i don’t know if it’s earhquake or i’m just dizzy since i’m awake since last night. i slept for 12 hrs and i took advantage since it’s my off.

how would you know if there’s an earthquake? it’s the same as how would you know if something’s wrong with you. you wouldn’t really know unless you look on the things around you. you wouldn’t know unless other people tell you. you will get dizzy and eventually get sick of it. you wouldn’t know unless things were already broken and damages were done.

complains….

I feel like my saturday was wasted, I just slept 12 hrs from 9am to 9pm. i had fever again, and unfortunately, it wasn’t too high to let  me go home. i still worked, which makes me think even more that the management sucks. i enjoy my officemates, it’s just that i don’t understand how they treat us… it’s really unfair. my team leader thinks that our ops manager is the best, but she can’t even greet or talk to us. duh?! what kind of management is that, having your people work to death?

i don’t want to quit my job right now, though i could easily find a replacement. i’ll wait for the 13th month pay. then come what may. i just want to live a normal life, maybe i should try looking for a dayjob now. if i can’t save money, what else can i do? i really have to start doing it. i’m tired of working, i need to graduate and switch to a new career.

i’m happy for ‘him’ at least he loves his job now. he even stay 7 days a week and can’t have a time going out with me. he said he wants me back, but saying your feelings and doing something are completely different right? i don’t know what’s happening to me. my work sucks and i can’t even change him to be a better bf (although we’re not a couple).

everyday i buy foods which i can’t eat since we have a lot of housemates here. my officemates said i shouldn’t deprived myself from eating good foods. i’m not. it’s just that when i’m at home, there’s nothing to eat. i would need to buy first, but not just for me, but for all of us. i don’t know why it’s always me. my sister got a discrepancy on her paycheck last pay period, my brother gives higher amt every payday for the bills, my older brother already got a family. i am becoming more and more stressed now. maybe it’s not u.t.i., it’s not even a simple fever, it’s not tonsilitis, it’s more of self deprivation…

Loving is not owning-We can let it go

I was on my way home when I heard this song. It’s so simple yet meaningful. Guess a lot of people could relate to this since we have this so called “parang-kame-na-parang-hinde” type of relationship. Not just for those type but also for all types of relationships. Nothing is permanent but change. There’s no assurance and security in this world, we only live once so why live miserable. I maybe talking like i’ve never experience hurt before but believe me: i feel it until it’s gone.

i’m self-proclaimed insecure with so many things – don’t mention school, diploma, cool job, best bf here ok??? the thing is, i can’t live agonizing everyday. i can just go with the flow. if i can’t be happy now, until when should  wait right? I may be broke most of the times, but i can be wealthier and happier and wiser just by letting things happen. We can let it go…

Now by MYMP

Now is all I know
Now is all I got
And I don’t know
If there will be tomorrow for us.

Now is all I care about
Now that you are here
Now that you’re the contents of my heart.

Now you’re all I know
Now is all I promise
And I don’t know
If there will be a future for us.

Now is all I live for
Now that you are near
And it was best that from the start it was clear.

Refrain:
Loving is not owning
We can let it go
We can let it go.

Loving is not owning
You can let me go
You can let me go.

Chorus:
There’s a reason
Why we love each other now
And we don’t know if this is forever.

There’s a reason
Why we are together now
And we don’t care if it’s not forever now.

Now is all I think about
Now that I am happy
And I’m not sure
If there will be a future for us.

Now is all I offer
It’s everything I got
And I still wish

That there will be a tomorrow for us.

We love each other now..

how will i be?

Since my birthday, i was sick and became thinner. It was more than a week and i feel like not going to work. I filed sick leave on my bday. I was able to come to work the other week but after a week i became sick again. i filed for sick leave for 2 days. my mom was also sick that time and my sister too. after that my brother was confined due to upper respiratory infection-which was his fault-pasaway rin kc. anyway, i missed blogging. and i didn’t know what happened to our dsl, maybe it was sick too..hehe

during those times, i didn’t contact my ex cause i’m a bit frustrated, he didn’t even remember my bday. only after minutes of chatting he realized that it was bday. then when he knew i was sick, naguilty xa he even bought me a present (which i haven’t gotten y the way). i just said it’s nothing and my bday past already. he said even though, it was still a special day for me and he’s happy with my presents when we were together. actually it would be the very first present he ever bought for me. he gave some stuff before but this one is different so i’m just curious what it is.

we chat last friday morning. i told him that one of my friends wants me to go with her in spain.

he said: ¿Qué hay de mí?

Si vas a ir

at that time, i was chatting also with my friend who speaks spanish. then she told me the translation. it means “how will I be if you leave”…. i’m flattered. then i said why does it have to be in spanish. he said he’s shy.  i  don’t know what kind of set up this is between the two of us. right now, he’s the only man i have in mind. i bumped into my crush the other week. i was surprised seeing him. but then nothing’s new and i realized nothing’s special. he’s just one of those guys who make my heart beat faster. but with my ex, even though we don’t date a lot, we don’t meet a lot, or share things a lot, he has this special part in my life that i can’t erase easily. i’m not one of the mushy or hopeless romantic type but it’s different with him. i’m finding out the hard way with him. i’m not sure what to do now with him but i’m just living each day at a time

smile while you still have teeth

Birthdays are nature’s way of telling us to eat more cake. On my case, I didn’t get to blow my own cake, no ice cream and no parties-yet and no present from anyone. there’s just enough food for bunch of relatives that came, and will come til this weekend, enough time to sleep and enough greetings from closest friends. i have a lot of friends but only few remembered to greet. hey! i’m not nostalgic here.

i just realized that as i grow older, i don’t need presents nor surprises, i don’t need greetings from all the people i know, i don’t expect need expensive reservations in a restaurant or hotel, i don’t need to have out of town trips, i don’t need to throw parties or go bar hopping (nde nmn sa yoko manglibre rin)...i just need to be remembered.

Maybe that time, i just need to have a rest, a medical cert, and someone who probably sat beside me while waiting for my birthday to end.. and a bar of chocolate to make me feel good!

just want to say thanks TO all of my friends who remembered.

To those who didn’t… don’t worry, i didn’t forget to list your names on the hall of shame..joke! lol!

out of the topic:

i realized that it’s good to eat the whole bar of chocolate w/o sharing it to anyone. try nyo!

what makes me whole

Monday is my off so i decided to FINALLY date my ex. since his shift ends 7pm, i went to my long lost bes whose already preggy and i haven’t seen for 2 yrs i think…?

i was hesitant to meet him but i said yes. he kept on calling to my bes’ house just so to check and update me about our date. it was already 8pm and i realized i’m awake for 24 hrs already!

di ko lam what happened to me that time, nawala bigla ang mood ko na makita siya.

BIG MISTAKE.

dahil lang nawala ako sa mood, i decided to postpone it. it’s obvious na nalungkot siya. panu kc he wants to see me and have dinner at his place. but i don’t want to because i wish we’d go sumplace where we could sit and talk. i don’t want his mom to find out that we’re still communicating, dahil sa isang pangyayaring pang-telenovela, tila yun na ang una at huling pagkikita namin ng mom nya.

i posted it to my x-blog:

STORY-of-US

he called again after saying gbye which is really unusual for him. i asked “namiss mo ko noh?” he said “lamu naman yun eh”. when i went home, i just wish i didn’t say no. kulang tuloy ang araw ko. i feel something’s missing, and it’s only him that could fill in the emptiness i feel right now.

disaster dentist

this is an email sent to both parties, to one of the largest dental clinic, cc: health card provider
To Whom It May Concern:

It is with much disappointment that I’m writing to you about the incident this afternoon at your XXXX branch.

I accompanied my mother to inquire if she could use her card for dental filling as it was about to expire end of September.  It was the first time for her to use it so she was careful to know which services are covered. She informed the dentist that she would only avail of what her card covers.

The dentist called for approval of the card and went ahead with the procedure. By the time it was nearly over, my mother was told that the card covered only 3 surfaces while there were actually 11 surfaces that were done on her. Apparently, the dentist worked under the impression that my mother wanted to have each tooth filled.

I would say that it was a real let down for us. We went all the way to your branch to avail of the service using the card for what it’s worth and not to shell out any cash at all. When we expressed our disbelief to the dentist, she openly admitted that they lack secretary there to assist cardholders and inform them of whatever cash that may be needed to be added for services outside card coverage.

We paid the bill (Php6400) even if we felt cheated by the poor customer service. Surely, the dentist could have offered us discount since she already knew of the misunderstanding on her part. My mother was specific about using the services afforded by her card.

At this point, what I am hoping to get from you is your understanding and your action on the matter.

Sincerely,

eggbreaker

i guess, that explains all..what a mess!

i wouldn’t mind

minsan, yoko na tumingin sa multiply contacts ko puro arki na. a lot of them would post abt the last oath-taking, their treat to their friends and all that stuff…d nga ako pumunta dun sa 3 friends ko ngtreat cla. nde nmn sadya pro busy lng..tska mei pasok ako nun..asar, blessing in diguise na rin. bka pag ndun ako ma0p lng ako sa mga achievements and work nila. so 4 na samin ang arki na…but to be fair with, ako yata ang mei pinakabonggang-bonggang sweldo sa knla..hehe

nkchat ko nga si….itago na lang ntin xa sa pangalang ghina, xa un 1st arki sa tropa. malupet un. 1st batch samin to take the board and she’s one of the top ten. eversince in college, the prof would praise her since she really has this magic hand that could capture and paint real-life images (prang cam lng).  she encouraged me to finish arki, well i still have 72 units left, if i’m gonna take it in my last school quarterly un (well 1 lng nmn ang quarterm skul d2 db), it would take 5 terms, 1 yr and 3 mos or so…kya lng it’s gonna hurt me so bad, physically and financially since mgwworking stud ako. i’m also interested in interior designing but 3 universities lng ngooffer nun, and skyrocket ang tuition nun.ghina said sabay daw kme mgtake nun, pro i’m so confused.

things that keep me from enrolling would be expenses here at home, although 3 kme ngwwork and mei biz sila momy prng kulang pa rin. and i’m not yet decided if i will pursure it or what. i love arki but i’m too scared to take the risk, i have a friend who didn’t make it and she hasn’t answered any of my txt. i mean was it really that bad, or maybe she doesn’t want us to pity her. well, the more she’s doing that the more obvious that she’s affected.db?? i’m not after the title, maybe i just want to finish and started working to that field. once you started working, the responsibility is in you…a lot of expectations, and i can’t afford not to help pay all the bills here. yoko nga mging pabigat. i’m not that type of person, i’d rather wait for my chance. it’s been 2 yrs..hehe how long must i wait kya?

prang txt message lng rin yan…

i like being single, i have more time for my friends, my family and myself.

but i wouldn’t t mind having someone to take care of me, i wouldn’t mind having someone to call as my own too.

and being an undergrad, i have time for my work to pay my bills and my vices

but i wouldn’t mind if someone would pay all my tuition fees too.

the real deal why a man needs to date a woman

it’s been a while since i last attended mass…earlier this morning i went to the edsa shrine so i could make amend. while reflecting, there’s this kid who’s so loud. a girl, around 5 yrs of age, was crying or laughing or just screaming that time. at first it was funny because whenever it’s quiet-sisigaw xa! but it’s been the Nth time… and everyone was disturbed already.

then i thought, is this a test how far these people can concentrate on the mass?  guess i’m not..hehe

the past few days, i’ve been busy with my job and getting some sleep. my ex is busy asking me out. he always email me, nanibago cguro kc before it was vice versa… and now, i am lazy replying simply because i don’t know what to say or how to react. it took time before i could reply, kung di pa ttwag d pa ko ssagot.

he wants to visit here…then i just said nothing. he emailed that as well, sa sweldo na lng daw kme labas kc (as usual) ubos na naman sweldo…gusto daw nya pumunta kso prang marame daw tao dito.

i just said: “ok sa sweldo na lng..mejo nandito sila tita.. d wag ka pumunta kung nahihiya ka. ;p”

aun tinawanan lan ako, oki na rin na isipin nyang joke lng un. i know he’s sensitive enough to notice i’ve changed. he said he understands why i’m like this. he’s been working overtime even on weekends for a month. di ko raw kc xa pinapansin. sino bang nde ngeeffort in the first place? what goes around comes around. if he wants to see me, he’s gotta work on it… i want to see him but i’m not making the moves.

naalala ko 2loy un homily….the priest said “the lord is very humble”

ouch!

men’s cr in front of my locker

ewan ko ba kung bakit sa dinami-dami ng lockers sa office, un locker ko ang tapat na tapat sa men’s cr. no kidding!

i feel awkward coz everytime i go to my locker, i should not stay long. a lot of men will pass by, dameng labas-pasok sa likod ko (panget pakinggan db?)

i want to personalize it, but nah! naalala ko, i have to remove my name there! gonna do it tonight first thing before working. unlike before, i used to have my own pedestal at my own station. it would be fun if it’s the ladies room instead, ttalikod lang ako cr na. i’m the type pa naman who would use the powder room 5x or more per day.

what if pagbaliktarin ko kya ung sign dun? hehehe nah..masipa pa ko sa work. ;p